| anyways, yeah...again its been awhile that ive been on Xanga, but yeah. i guess theres a lot of stuff that are going on in my life. first of all yeah, i have my baby sister now and shes 1 years old like last month. and uhh...yeah...summer is about to end which sucks...but anyways. yeah...i stoped doing drugs like last year? well set for smoking weed...i only smoke with my mom...so yeah haha XD but yeah. uhh...hmm...what else? oh yeah, uhh im still single now...which i guess is okay...but before...i dont know. im starting to dream about my memories which i do not like to dream about, but i cant really stop it...so yeah...it made me depressed for like a good couple weeks until i understand everything...cause its mostly the dream was about my past relationship with jo...[so jo if your reading this...yeah...i guess you knew? if you didnt well yeah...now you know...] but yeah...but like seriously...im always having thoughts yah know? just want to start everything new with her...but then i realize its better off we're just good friends yah know? its better then nothing...so yeah. at least i could still care about her as a friend and stuff but yeah...also like i dont know...i just though of something old...like before i remember that back in 8th grade, i didnt know that annie he liked me before...and before i moved, i starting to know that she likes me...but i guess i didnt know. so yeah...kind of sucks cause i could've went out with annie if i didnt moved, so i guess people are like saying to me in the past " YOU COULD'VE HAD YOUR CHANCE WITH ANNIE?!" but whatever...its done...over...i didnt take that chance, but yeah...anyways...uhh...what else happened? hmm...oh yeah. well uhh...yeah ive been just playing Maple Story [MS] haha yeah...its funny im just playing with Kelvin and thats it. well yeah...i guess thats all? im not sure, i might have more things that will come up soon but not right now. well since is about to start, im hoping that this year will be a better year for me cause i dont want to fail and when i get to my senior year, i want to have the chance to walk on that stage with my high school diploma. and after that my goals are simple, go to Ohlone College, get more credits and take some class that i wanted to take, and then heading to UCSD!! im going to major in mathmatics and im also probably going to take japanese over there too, but yeah thats my goal for the future and im really looking for to it. by the mean time, im going to go now, so this is the end of my blog. im still myspacing so yeah. haha well ill try to write again.
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| well since i barley even use this xanga im planning to just abandon
this xanga...im not going to delete this because...i dont know...just
too lazy...haha XP thats why im called the lazychink haha well
anyways...i just have a little confession to say...[people who read
this...] well ive been doing these drugs...and a lot of people ask why
am i doing these things...and i reply "everyone got their own
reasons..." my reason is just stress of my family...and my life...too
many things just happen soo quick that i cant handle it
anymore...everyone might not forgive me for the things that ive
done...and im sorry that im doing this...people say that why am i
wasting my life...and all i really have to say is that "no matter
what...im going to die soon...so i must live my life to its fullest"
probably i already have destroyed soo many brain cells in my head...and
probably have holes in them...i dont really care...[i dont realy care
if you guys call me emo] life is just full of stress and i have to deal
with things...but i already told myself that i must stop this madness
now...before my baby sister is born...and im trying my hardest to try
to find the right way to life...people been praying for me to find
"god" and ask him to help me...and i really thanked everyone who is
acually doing that for me...i appreciate everything that my friends
have been doing for me...but no matter what...i still have to learn my
own mistake and to just try my hardest to find the right
way...man...just seeing all the things that ive done...im practically
following my brothers step...and im trying my hardest not to...just
needed some help...ever since i moved to Union City...ive lost
connection with my old friends...and they always help me no matter
what...i just wished that i could move back to Fremont to be with all
of my old friends...ive made new friends here in Union City but its
just not my home...its cool that im living in a different place but
i've lived in Fremont for soo long...i cant leave Fremont...but i cant
change anything...and the truth is that im just feeling depressed for
some reason...and im trying to find what makes me happy...but nothing
really makes me happy...but im not giving up any hopes...im still
trying my hardest...to find the way...to find the thing that makes my
life satisfiy...but yeah...thats all i have to really say...but
anyways...im going now...again...im probably not going to post any
entry for awhile because i barley use xanga...so just add my on
myspace...its www.myspace.com/thalazychink well got to go...
~Scott Fan
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| WHOA!!! haha man i havent post in this for a long time huh? well anyways...hmm...how can i start this off...oh haha yeah ive been useing Myspace a lot now and also while my neighbor/best friend Kirs had a xanga...i was wounding "hey i have a xanga too" and yesterday made me deside to check out my xanga haha XD well anways my whole life been going okay...and also just kind of busy with school...man i cant believe that just couple more weeks until school is over!!! finally!! Summer Vacation!!! haha yeah i hope everything going to be a lot of fun ^^ haha well anyways in school [James Logan High School] everything is going well...i met a lot of new friends and mostly all of my friends live really close where i live now haha isnt that funny haha XD [laugh] haha well yeah its really nice know all the people that i hang out with because if i came to school not knowing anyone then i would be in trouble =/ but thanks to my Ading Ann i met a lot a new friends!! haha well dont worry i still miss all my Fremont friends [even though i live kind of far from it...] but yeah...hmm...let see...well this whole year ive been single for once haha never knew that but yeah and also hmm...i never acually liked anyone at school...and its kind of funny to me too haha i dont know why but yeah...haha oh yeah haha i love 6th period lunch haha its really fun because all of my friends are really random XD haha and also we have our own family haha the father is Sunny haha thats the funniest thing about our family haha and then like everyone was like a brother and sister to everyone and how we watch after each other and stuff...but yeah...hmm...that makes me think about my old days back in Centerville man...that was like the best right there haha i really miss those good old days how i first met everyone and also like how everyone was a family...man just thinking about it just makes me want to cry now ='[ but yeah...i really missed everyone back at Fremont...like a lot...they were like my closest family that i have ever had...and here at Union City its like i have to make new familys...and i already did...but im not going to compare Fremont and Union City...because all of my family are like the best to me...but yeah...kind of sad that i left Fremont...and i still remember that day...man...the only sad thing about it is that i only stayed there for like a month...and thats it....and also there was somebody who acually liked me ever since 8th grade...but i never notice that...and also i think she still likes me and also misses me too...like a lot...and i know who is that person too...but then i dont know what i can do...just have to wait whats going on first haha well i guess thats mostly all i could really say...ill try to post back again soon or later haha...buh bye everyones!! and take cares!! [oh yeah you guys can still post on my comment box if you guys acually go on Xanga...]
~Scott Fan
Who ever have an Myspace. Come and add me!! my Myspace is www.myspace.com/thalazychink
and the last name...just look up on my name right here haha it shows you my last name XD haha |
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| Man...finally....my whole week vaction...i needed it...tired of school alrdy,,,man...Logan just boring now...i thought it was a lot kool over there u shiet...oh well...well ne wayz uhh...yea...just kinda bored now and like i have nothin to do ne more...alwayz doing the same thing over n over n over n over...i just wish that i have something new to do now...man...ugh....soo fukin tired of things....man the only this that i hate sometimes at school is like wen ppl just rubbing things in my face...for example...Relationship....hella ppl keep telling me "Man i love this person dah dah dah dah dah" it just get annoying...man u kno that im not that kinda of person who would say..."Ok kool now just shut tha fuk u u bitch" no im not like that...i just listen and not saying a word about anything...well ne wayz...im just like yea w/e ok...but makes me think...A LOT...about things from past...just makes me think a lot n stuff....cant really help it...its just there u kno? well thats how i am haveing flash backs and seeing spirits and also seeing the future...well ne wayz...yea thats mostly all...i just hope i could find someone to love...i guess i will nvr find one...well ne wayz
Everyone Have A Great ThanksGiving Break!!! =D
-Scott Fan
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| WHOA!!! dang i havent post in months...geez well ne wayz uhh...yea i move to Union City now...and like i alrdy started school at James Logan...well it sux that i have to leave my friends but i made some new friends here....at least..but dang theres too many like drama happening over here...well ne wayz uhh...ive been helping my friends Ann the whole time and also im trying to keep up with school stuff...freakin ay this sux...i have Biology and wen i was at Washington i was failing Earth Science...dam this shiet sux...well ne wayz uhh...this is my Schedule...
Oh yea theres 8 periods just to let u kno...
1 period - none
2 period - Study Skills
3 period - P.E.
4 period - English
5 period - Biology
6 period - Lunch
7 period - Algabra 1
8 period - Life Skills....
well ne wayz yea kinda weird huh? ne wayz uhh...freakin hella ppl thought i was cute but i dunno them haha well thats kinda funny and also hella ppl keep askin me who i like n shiet but i dun like anyone...i just wanted to be single still...kinda ok but less shiet happening with me...well at least for now...well uhh..yea this xanga is not DEAD ok? its still alive..i just got my internet back on n stuff and yea...well ne wayz to all the Washington ppl and Centerville ppl i just wanted to say I MISS YOU GUYS!!! man i just wish i was back in Fremont...well ne wayz i gotta go now...ill try my best to keep this xanga alive n shiet k? well ttyl everyone Buh BYE!!!
-Scott Fan |
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